This time last year i wrote a post exactly the same as this one, round about the same time on the same day, New Year’s Eve.
It’s amazing reading back on that post and reading about what i wanted from this year and how i felt this time last year.
It’s safe to say i was a fucking wreck this time last year, i had never been so weak, helpless and vunrable in my entire life. Which now i think about it i find it amazing how i was even like that.

I think 2012 outdid 2011, by a long shot. I think that’s because i didn’t only rely on one person to give me amazing memories. I’ve got my memories from some amazing people in my life this year. My girls and my family have really pulled through for me
this year… They’re probably the most amazing human beings i’ve ever met in my life.

2012 brought my Drake’s concert, oh my god i would say probably one of my best nights of 2012. My 16th birthday gathering, PROM!! Epsom derby day, SUMMER. My 3 holidays. All the new friends ive made and new people i’ve got speaking to, starting college, passing my GCSEs. Now when i think about it 2012
did more for me than 2011 ever did. That’s why i’m so so so happy in life right now.
I’m content with life. I’m seeing someone new and he makes me so happy, and i hope there’s a future for us in 2013. I’m stronger and i’m everything i wanted to be in 2012 that i hoped for on this day in 2011. And better yet, i’m better off without someone i thought i needed.

Now, in 2013 i don’t know what i want. I won’t wish for much. Just for happiness, love, memories.  

2013, please be good to me xx

stressing because my fashion coursework is due tomorrow and if i don’t do everything by tomorrow they’ll take my frees away and put me on extra fashion lessons, waaa waaa waaa

on the plus side i’m having sweet and sour chicken with egg fried rice for dinner - i blame lydia for me liking this..

I am so stressed, i’ve got a maths homework test paper due tomorrow and i haven’t done it. My fashion homework which i was meant to do this weekend i haven’t done, omg. Want to physically scream, college is such hard-work lol, complain complain complain.

so today i probably had the worst day of my life.. so i had to go to college today to do admin, finalise my a levels, sort out N.U.S card etc. my appointment was at 11:15.
so amy was coming with me, she waited at the bus stop and the bus driver drove past her, top tfl cunt.
then, we finally got on a bus and got to the train station and i bought my ticket everything was fine, then i got on the train and realised i had lost my phone… then i arrived at the station i had to change my train and the train was 20 mins delayed.. so that sucked balls.
then, i arrived at college and got told i couldn’t do one of my courses and had to do maths in addition to my a levels, luckily they let me on my course.. but didnt budge about maths
then had to have my I.D photo taken, every picture i took i looked like a deformed disabled rat, fab.
then maxy, bless.. love him.. mocked my outfit and said i looked like i was going for a run.
luckily someone has found my phone and i’ll go and get it tomorrow!!

had a pretty decent day at college yesterday, i think the only thing that’s gonna be a massive shock to me is the hour of morning i am required to wake up at.. omg, what am i gonna do

i have been so materialistic today, SO many things i’ve wanted.. omg.. WHAT is wrong with me. stop laura, stop.

fuck off pinning things to the top of my dash, wankers

i need a good old fucking rant about gcse’s..

okay so i am relatively happy with my gcse results, i am not complaining as they could’ve been A LOT worse, but thank god they weren’t.. but i also feel like i tried so hard and just got fuck all for the subjects i tried hard in (besides health and social care) so i feel like i’ve basically wasted my time.
what else pisses me off is when people don’t try hard at school, at all.. the coasted for the past 2 years of gcse’s yet they passed everything? yet there’s other people that tried hard all the time + didn’t pass everything.. i’m not at all saying this is me because i admit i didn’t try hard ALL the time, i tried to most of the time.
also, when your teacher predicts you an A in an exam, you go into the exam feeling ok, not overly confident but not down about it.. then you do the exam, you think aw this is quite easy.. then, i get the result today and it’s a D. A D. really e.a? REALLY?
that’s also like fucking art, on my 16th birthday i must’ve stayed behind til 6:30 completing my sketchbooks + exam sketchbook making sure everything was a c standard at least.. what do i come out with.. a D. FUCKING REALLY? now, i feel like i should’ve said fuck it and gone home.
i’m not gonna complain about drama because i couldn’t do theory and i knew theory was gonna be the reason i failed because i got a c on practical.. so, nothing i could do.
i’m not gonna say anything about maths because i have done at least TEN maths exams.. TEN and i have failed EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM, without fail.. every single time, although i did revise HARD for this one, it was my last 3 exams and i revised it first, i think this i just proof i CANNOT do maths, i can’t. end of story.
there are subjects i am proud of, like french for example.. i got a B in that because my exams were As and my coursework was a C and a B.. so i am SO chuffed about that. i’m also chuffed about health and social care and i’m chuffed about english because i didn’t think i passed lit and i did so, that’s good..
but, i guess there’s nothing i can do about it now, my gcse’s are my gcse’s and i just needed this rant to say my peace.. because i’ve had this bottled up.. but yep yep kl

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so yesterday i applied for iTunes festival tickets, i only applied for..

• david guetta + calvin harris
• mumford and sons + willy mason
• usher
• lana del rey
• + ellie goulding

i applied like 3 times but knowing me i never have any luck so it won’t matter because i wont get tickets hahaha, but hey-ho!
i’d love to go to david guetta, mumford and sons + lana del rey the most! but whatever i get i’ll take!! 

just completed a abs workout, inner-tigh gap workout + a bum workout, dead bu proud of myself.. body feels so good.

FINALLY am listening to ‘Channel Orange’ - Frank Ocean. Been long awaited, finally getting round to it. Gonna FaceTime pete in a min too x